Quick update

So it's been a few weeks and I'm back in the "real life" part of things.  I shan't lie, I think I prefer Hawaii, but I didn't come this far just to give up and quit, right?  I mean after two and a half years, the next twelve weeks will dash by in a breeze and be totally worth it! (I have to remind myself of this daily...maybe one of these mornings I will believe it).  The best part is that I definitely see the end of the 12 weeks...ugh.  I expected this to be a clinical that I love, but there's no lovin' going on yet. Hopefully it will come....hopefully very soon.  tomorrow would be great.  A complainer?  Yes, I am a bit right now.  Instead of working with babies 0-3 my clinical instructor's (CI's) caseload is primarily teenagers right now. Most of them are boys and none of them are too happy to be in the hospital.  The change happened last week, much to my CI's dismay as well as my own. Lame staffing problems.  The caseload isn't my primary complaint though. I'd be cool with it.  Here's the thing:

I decided that being a student intern is like being a teenager. Ugh!  Adolescence was NOT my favorite time of life and I am not happy to be in a comparable situation.  After the last 5 months of interning, I was pretty much carrying a caseload independently.  New setting, new diseases and impairments, new skills needed and even more importantly, new CI= no trust. Which means I do basically nothing yet. I'm so bored, so tired of having my every move watched and corrected, so frustrated with being so close to graduation and yet feeling so far away, so tired of feeling like the underdog and never being treated equal to coworkers. I get it.  I'm a student. I'm so done with it. So trunky. 12 weeks...that only three months, I can count that on one hand.  In two weeks, I'll be able to count the weeks on one hand.

I know...it's definitely not the worst thing that could be happening in life.  I realized Thursday on my way home that since I work 4 ten hour shifts, I have three days off which is about as close to half and half as you can get.  4 on, 3 off.  Not bad right?  Right.  Work hard, play hard. It's all worth it...right?  Twelve weeks and I'll officially be Dr. Schoonmaker... it has a nice ring to it.